What is it that keeps us going, striving, and reaching for our dreams and goals? What is it that keeps us down? Makes us stop or makes us quit?
Is it perseverance? Self confidence? Real or imagined success? Or something else entirely?
I look at where I was just a few years ago. I look at where I am today. I look at where I am headed. It is overwhelming sometimes. Shoot, if someone had told me just ten years ago that I would make my living as an artist, I would have laughed at them. Me? Create art? Yeah right, I don’t have an artistic bone in my body! And yet, here I am. With the computer as my medium, I can in fact, create fractal, digital art that moves, touches and inspires more than just me! Amazing. It honestly does not feel or seem real a lot of the time. I always thought life had other plans, other directions. I never dreamed of following this path.
And as I roll down this path, I see it has changed, is still changing, before me. I marvel at the way things have just fallen into place with my Fractalicious ™ accessories line. It is all coming to fruition. I still am not quite sure how I am managing it all, other than I just keep taking baby steps forward. I look down the path and I can’t really see past the bends and the forks. It is both frightening and exhilarating.
I must remind myself to be flexible, bendy if you will, as I continue to navigate forward. I might have one vision of the “how” to achieve the desired outcome, and circumstance, life, God, the universe, whatever label you wish to adhere to it, certainly often has another! Often, it is a much better “how” than the one I have tried to concoct. The trick is letting go, and moving with that different flow. I can be a bit of a control freak. That is not always easy for me. I often get hung up on the “how” while floating down that river, and thus, take longer to get to the end.
While this all sounds all Suzy Sunshine and rosy, it’s not to say that I am not met with obstacles. I have this persistent nagging little voice in my head that tells me all sorts of ugly things. Some days it is harder to squelch it than others. It is not always easy to take that next step when I so want to falter. There are days when I really wonder if I am in the right place; on the right path. This is all just a mistake, right? Is it too late to turn around? Think I will just stop right here…lay down…call it quits…
We all have days like that, right? How is it that some seem to move forward more fluidly than others on days like this? Some seem to just let it all slide off their backs, and yet others let it affect them more strongly, causing things to slow down or stop entirely. Me? I am somewhere in the middle. I don’t ever fully stop, but I have had my slowed moments. Moments that startle me, get me thinking too much, slow my steps, cause me to sit and ponder and begin to chicken out or quit. Somehow I manage to stand up and take that next baby step, however. I figure eventually, I will be able to see around the bend. Maybe that next step right around the corner is THE step I need to take to get to where I am headed.
I could write and say what techniques I use to pull past it all. That is for another post, another time, as this rambling is well…long enough! But what I would love to hear is how YOU push past. What makes YOU take that step. And then the next. And the next. And the next? What tricks and tips can you share, personally, with the rest of us? I think that we can all learn from each other, derive strength and inspiration. Our paths all parallel, ultimately. Please, join in the discussion below!
Go out and make it a Fractalicious Day!
~Kimberly
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